Don’t I know that quarrels are caused by selfishness? Is it not clear that we have conflict because we each seek our own interest? How many times must we be told to think of others first before we actually do it? …How many? Then again, don’t I need stuff?

“You do not have because you do not ask…”

Well good grief, I’ll just ask for–

“…because you ask wrongly…”

Okay, I’ll ask in the proper context when I get to the fourth petition of the Lord’s prayer and tag on “Not my will but thine be done” just to make it humble.

“You ask and do not get because you ask wrongly, to spend in on your own passions.”

But it’s not my passion, it’s just the way we like to live, with stuff, and happiness, it’s what everyone wants. What about my testimony!?! ( Hehe, gotcha there God!)

“Do you not know that friendship with the world is enmity with God?”

But, but, I need to have friends in the world so I can witness to them (nevermind that that’s not the point of this conversation; I think it’s a good point!).

“He yearns jealously…”

Jealously? God is jealous? You mean like selfish? So what’s up with all this sacrifice and love talk, God?

“He yearns jealously over the spirit that he made to dwell in us.”

Ther spirit that he made to dwell in us…, like in me? Like who I am? So that means that the spirit in me, the spirit of God’s creation is why he is in control and I’m not. What would there be if I didn’t have this spirit? Eee, “let me not think on’t!” (the next phrase of that quote is not applicable to this context)It must be what the world is: always seeking to fufill their passion yet never being filled–hey! That’s just what God told me not to do. “Now it makes sense. Who am I? That’s the question, not: what can or can’t I have or do.

“God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.”

Ah yes, grace. Where did that fit in my argument? I guess it didn’t; I was just trying to get something from God. Wait a minute!…’Get something’…’grace’. He’s already given it all, his life, continually , for my joy, and fufillment in him. I guess that is something for him to be jealous about, cuz it all came from him and belongs to him. What more is there to ask for than a relationship filled with this grace? There’s something to ask for!